Zech's Blog

FUCK! DAMNIT! I just wrote this damned article 2ce over the second time getting it even better than the first and deleted it twice on accedent. But I'll try to regenerate as much as I can from this subject. I've been wondering and contemplating the idea of Evil lately and wondering what makes Evil things morally wrong. If I were to walk out of my house to find the first accessable person and punch them in the mouth until they were unconcious and bleeding on the ground, why would that be evil? People from as far as anyone can remember and before that have judged each other on what we do, and how we do it. A good example for this subject is Charlie Manson and his followers. Some of them said that didn't think what they had done was wrong in any way. Even so they were on drugs and supposedly out of their minds but who can say differently to them? Who can say that they did something evil by stabbing people to death? If someone tells me that there are sertain things that someone can do in this life that are evil then they are admitting that this is a perfect God. Only a perfect being can dictate what is good and what is evil. Not any of us, or the goverment, or any powerful fellow human being can wholey decide what is good and what is bad. I've also been somewhat falling back in my faith in Christianity until this came to mind, and I thank my father for this recallection he told me. One day he was at a local book store, and he got into a religous conversation with a homosexual man. This man was open to hearing what my father had to say, and honestly asked questions and told my father about his childhood and his parents had split up, and how his life has just been tough all around. Then in the later part of this conversation the man asked my dad two questions. One was "So... do you really think being a homosexual is wrong?". My father's answer was yes, because it says in the Bible he does believe it is wrong, but that doesn't mean he looks down on the man anymore than any straight man he would meet because nobody is perfect, but we all need to try to be. This didn't anger the man because again he seemed very open to others opinions, but his second question was, "And what if you are wrong about gays and the bible and god?". My father then told him how fucked up his life was before he came to have a relationship with God, he was a drunk who got in fights every week, he was dishonest, and didn't have a direction for his life. And this is the part that really effected me. He said, I'm only human, and I believe with ever part of my mind and soul that there is a God who loves me and that I will go to heaven when I die and be at peace. So even if I'm wrong about God and heaven and right and wrong, at least this mental structure of thought gives me as much peace of mind that I can have in this life. If I'm wrong and I die and nothing hapens what's the difference? At least I had a direction and happyness in my life that I wouldn't have if I believed there was no perpose in life. >>I have nothing to lose<<. That was the end of there conversation and they both left peacefully. But this whole thing is mainly just saying, without a higher power or even a belief in a higher power there is no peace, theres no right and wrong, and therefore no perpose to life. I guess this is directed towards athiests because whoever is reading this can probably say I believe in God and good and evil, and not have the same basis of "Good and Evil" as me. But you know whatever, death doesn't worry me anymore. I have nothing to lose in believing in the Bible. So try as the reader, to personally examin yourself, from where or what do you get the "Phrame of Reference" of your thoughts and judgements.

One more thing, this is an entirely a separate subject but this is to everyone. I smoke weed and salvia, and take E etc. (basicly saying I do drugs) and I cuss. And people lately have been expressing to me that they think this is wrong. But whenever I ask them why they either say "it just is" or "drugs alters your mind so you aren't you while you're on them". To that I say bullshit. It isn't wrong to me, and to other Christians -> it isn't in the Bible, you've just been programmed to think that. If it's harmfull to me that oh wow that sucks really, but so is everything else, including eating. We're only getting closer to the end days so don't tell me that that is wrong please, it gives me the impression you are weak minded and easily influenced to blindly believe things you don't understand.